Sad

Today marks one month since my best friend lost her son to cancer. This by far is the most difficult journey that I've ever witnessed anyone make. And I must say, she is amazing!  Her strength shows through her love for her boys every second of every day. And although I know she doesn't always feel "strong", she truly is. 

Not a day goes by without a sweet memory of you, Bean. I know you watch over us every minute of every day. Take care of your mommy. She loves you so much!  

Also, tomorrow marks the two year anniversary of my D&C. While I know that I would not have my beautiful baby boy without the loss, I still feel it very heavily. I remember that awful feeling when I walked through the labor and delivery doors at the hospital. I still hear my voice crying out for my lost baby. 

So while I am celebrating my many blessings this week, my heart is very heavy with loss as well.